So for the past 6 years I have tried to have the “Summer of Awesome“, truth be told things always crept up and when I looked back at the summer each September it wasn’t truly the summer I had hoped and dreamed for. There were family illnesses and deaths, work that I let sneak in on my vacation time and other things along the way.
As my second babe is heading off to school this year I have that feeling of guilt and sorrow in my belly and my heart. That feeling that I didn’t spend as much quality time with her as I had hoped for. That I have now missed out on these opportunities because she is growing fast and will be off to full day school in the Fall.
So, I could sit her and be all sad and feel the guilt or I can pick myself back up and make the best of the summer we have in front of us and celebrate the beautiful, warm and loving child she has become.
Here’s the thing with “Mom Guilt” – we always seem to have it looming around…if we welcome it to be there! You are not alone in thinking…..”I should have”, “I could have”, “I wanted to”, etc, etc, etc. Our children are resilient and they love us despite what we feel are flaws.
So as Summer 2017 approaches, I am super confident that I AM going to make this the summer that I want it to be. We are going to have many laughs, popsicles on the back deck enjoying the sunshine and each others company, fun day trips, walks, bike rides and moments where we just sit and enjoy each others company.
I know this is going to be a challenge for me. I know it is not going to be easy and there will be moments where I really need to draw myself back to being in the present moment. There are going to be moments when I want to pick up my phone and reply to just one more email. That I will be stuck mindlessly surfing social media. But I recognize that I am human. It takes time to change our behaviours and I am ready to slowly make the change towards being the more mindful mama that I want to be for my children.
So….what do we have planned for our Rockin’ Summer of 2017? Stay tuned and I will share!